I hear the rustle of clothing as people take their seats in the hard plastic folding chairs. The uncomfortable clearing of the throat, loud sipping of coffee, the buzz of the harsh florescent lighting above. The director calls the meeting to an open. Asks for new speakers. I stand up, clear my throat and say, "Hi! My name is Vinnie. I'm a photographer. I'm addicted to Photography." The other members of Photographers Anonymous give polite claps and welcome me.
In all seriousness, photography has become my vice. I spend my days looking at every location around me as to how I would pose and light a setting. People walking by no longer are just people, but models and props. Free time is spent learning new editing techniques and thinking about the next shoot. And during a shoot, when I click the shutter and KNOW I nailed the shot, I give a fist pump and a "YESSSSSSS!!!!!"
It's that moment where the lighting, subject and everything just click and you know you have it. In the particular photo above, Brooke just squatted down and everything was just perfect. It also helps when the connection between subject and photographer is very strong as it is between us. But I gave a little hop and a skip after this shot and immediately brought the camera up to get more, more, more and more.
And it's not regulated to just models. This next photo was when I was working with studio lighting for the first time and was using two lights. Never tried it. So I set it up. I wasn't working with models yet at the time so I decided to use the worst possible model that I knew, me, and I actually nailed it. I set the timer, ran to the chair and sat and did my little pose and click. Went and looked at the back of the camera and Bang! Nailed it! I then proceeded to take about 75 more that didn't turn out so well but that one shot was a rush.
As each shoot comes and goes, it boils through my blood. I keep seeing shots I want. I want to shoot at any moment I can. There are times now when I think specifically of special shots and how I would set it up and shoot it. Sigh. Photography is my drug, my vice. The sound of lens focusing. The click of the shutter. Me directing my subject to the perfect pose. When I get home and see the image on the big screen. When I edit and upload. When my clients react.
"Hi, my name is Vinnie. I'm a photographer. I'm addicted to photography."